The sorrow, the sorrow!!!

[crazydiamondsue]

My soul is wrapped in harsh repose,
midnight descends in raven-colored clothes...

My spirit animal is seriously pissy today. I'm down in the dumps. Lower than an omoeba. Sorrier than a kicked dog. I don't feel good, okay? I'm trying really hard not to give in to a good old fashioned lj whine fest, followed by pleadings for cyber hugs. 'Cause really? Just not me. My WIP's stalled. I have a Xander ficathon story due in 3 days and I haven't written one word, and I think my general premise pretty much sucks. But I signed up months ago, before I started writing slash and asked for a Bander assignment. I know, I know. Me? 'Tis true. Instead I got Xander + 1st season demon. Probably should get working on it. All I want to do is listen to really depressing music and drink lots of wine and stare at pictures of dead rock stars. And wear black. And do fucked up things to my hair. ("Oh, god, it's serious!" I hear Stoney cry.)

Plus...Laz finished Repossession. I've read my last Repo. (Until I go back to read it again.) Today is a darkly beautiful day. Someone drive to Oklahoma and get drunk with me and help me write Part 11 of SMCD and this ficathon. C'mon, I'll get Stoney's recipe for a Charisma Nipple...

Comments

[anelith.livejournal.com]

Hi there -- you were feeling bad, but now it seems that you're all better? I hope so! This will teach me to not check LJ for a few hours, I miss important updates to my flist. But it sounds like you needed help from writerly-type people, which is not me, so while I can send all sorts of good wishes your way (and do) that's about all. Neither can I give you a recipe for anything so charmingly named as Charisma Nipple, but I could send you a recipe for something sweet if you like? My recipe box is about half sweets, cause that's really the only thing I like to cook.

I am saving the last chapters of Repo for some time when I have uninterrupted child- and husband-free moments. Then I plan to go and reread all my favorite bits again. Maybe I'll need to read some other stuff to cheer me up after that!

I wanted to tell you that as you recommended, I read Without Ceremony and my first impulse was to run down the street, yelling, "Now *that's* what I'm talking about! That's what fanfic is capable of!" to everyone I met. Maybe it's a good thing I didn't do that. I'll just meekly go over to TWOP and see if it's already been recced and if not, do so with more decorum and dignity than the running down the street thing. Elenabtvs was also responsible for Drive, which I loved.

So far from your list the other thing I hadn't already read that I've read is Intervention, and I was soooo frustrated to find that Part 19 was inaccessible. Is that just me? Or is this some cruel joke on the part of the writer/universe?

Again, glad that you're happier. Wish I could have been able to cheer you up -- you gave me a warm glow when you said you liked my LJ name! It's just an amalgam of some elements of my first and middle name (Anne Elizabeth). Couldn't think of anything more witty or creative.

[crazydiamondsue.livejournal.com]

Hee. Stoney emailed me last night to say that after Mr. Stoney saw the pics of Ms. Carpenter from "Charmed" he fixed her something he cleverly called a Charisma Nipple.
Isn't Without Ceremony amazing? I hadn't read it until after I read tgray's Pornathon (of which "Drive" was an entry) and I enjoyed it so much, I emailed her much love and then went off to check out her other writings. I read Ceremony to Caza and he was opened mouth with admiration. Elena doesn't get nearly enough squees for that, in my opinion.
I got over my very bad day. In the past few days I've come to the realization that there are more than the few people I'm on a first name basis with reading my fic and it kind of made me self-concious (happily so, but still kind of "Whaaa??")
Email me sometime: crazydiamondsue@hotmail.com

Intervention

[crazydiamondsue.livejournal.com]

Forgot to say that Part 19 of Intervention is here:
http://www.livejournal.com/users/jameschick/11767.html