I Keep Trying to Get Out...

[crazydiamondsue]

...and they keep pulling me back in. So I gave a friend (who's always been very supportive of my writing) my website address because he wanted to see what I've been working on lately. Gulp. Okay, first of all, he's never watched anything from the Buffy 'verse and I tried to explain that he wouldn't get it. He insisted, and I'm never one to turn down fb, so I acquiesed. He's a gay man, so I figured some of the slash might intrigue.

He thought my little vignette Hair Like Chinese Silk was charming, but basically said, "Sue, why are you wasting your time with this? We've been telling you for years that you have the ability to make this a career, and you're never going to do that sitting around at 30 (I'm 33, so that was nice) writing stories about monsters." (Seemed to work okay for Joss...) So basically his thought process was "all this effort - nothing to show for it." Hey, I resent that - I've had squees aplenty!

It just kind of pulled me out of the B-verse and back into RL, which isn't always of the good. I've also been exploring aspects of my (former) RL, writing up a fic for nashmaveric . She wanted gay cowboys, so I dug my George Strait box set out and I've been stalking members of the IGRA (International Gay Rodeo Association) for tips. My first human AU, Angel/Xander will be roping its way toward you soon. So, country roads are taking me home, but things are not quite as I remember - hee! Please join me as I waste my time. Sorry, that'll be burnin' my ass for the rest of the night.

Comments

Hmmm.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

Sue, you know I think you are a terrific writer. I do not see writing as therapy. It's hard, and it sucks and it is incredibly fulfilling when the words come out right. I might be the only person haging out around here that sees it as a pasttime. As a diversion, as an excerise, as a way to educate your lover. "See? Read that part right there. Now do it to me." I can see why a RL person looks at you and says stop doing this non-paid thing and get paid for it.

There have been some intensive discussions about what makes good fanfic, badfic, etc. And I have come to the conclusion that some people need to step away from their fandom for a spell.

But when there is a story that needs to come out, you just get it out and make it right. I dunno. I'm getting sour on the elitism that seems to be running rampant in all things Joss. And why don't RL people get that you can (could? will?) do both? You most definitely should. You write amazing dialogue, and you are funny, and you make me see the people. Not many can claim that.

Well, I just alienated myself from just about everyone. Uh... dogs being eaten by eagles!! Come back.....
*sob*

Re: Hmmm.

[crazydiamondsue.livejournal.com]

You couldn't alienate me with a crowbar, baby! He'll turn around when he sees the gay cowboy story (ah, yes he will.)

Yeah, there's definitely opinionation bulldoggin' the fic world.(Sorry, I'm just not backing off the cowboy metaphors.) But considering I've written more in the past 4 months than I have in the past four years...the fic burst of writing even has me dusting off that long laid aside novel and going, wasn't I going to be a writer when I grew up?

And you know, more dogs being eaten by eagles wouldn't be a bad thing...

Re: Hmmm.

[stoney321.livejournal.com]

*Ptooey* *ching!*

Yup. Them words musta come outta ya 'cause you gots them fancy pants learnin. Best go use it, now. (Oh, and were you channeling a little Cheri O'Teri in that fic from our email? And when i say email, I'm talking about your man milk. And when I say man milk, I'm talking aboutcha seee-men.)

Rambling tastes like burning!