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crazydiamondsue) wrote2004-09-11 08:13 pm
I Keep Trying to Get Out...
...and they keep pulling me back in. So I gave a friend (who's always been very supportive of my writing) my website address because he wanted to see what I've been working on lately. Gulp. Okay, first of all, he's never watched anything from the Buffy 'verse and I tried to explain that he wouldn't get it. He insisted, and I'm never one to turn down fb, so I acquiesed. He's a gay man, so I figured some of the slash might intrigue.
He thought my little vignette Hair Like Chinese Silk was charming, but basically said, "Sue, why are you wasting your time with this? We've been telling you for years that you have the ability to make this a career, and you're never going to do that sitting around at 30 (I'm 33, so that was nice) writing stories about monsters." (Seemed to work okay for Joss...) So basically his thought process was "all this effort - nothing to show for it." Hey, I resent that - I've had squees aplenty!
It just kind of pulled me out of the B-verse and back into RL, which isn't always of the good. I've also been exploring aspects of my (former) RL, writing up a fic for ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif){kind=small}
nashmaveric . She wanted gay cowboys, so I dug my George Strait box set out and I've been stalking members of the IGRA (International Gay Rodeo Association) for tips. My first human AU, Angel/Xander will be roping its way toward you soon. So, country roads are taking me home, but things are not quite as I remember - hee! Please join me as I waste my time. Sorry, that'll be burnin' my ass for the rest of the night.
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And A/X human? LOL... sucked in and no turning back for you now!
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Isn't it scary that we get that? LOL
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*snicker* OMG! Gay cowboys! You've made my night!
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Get over here and download sisabet's Cowboy at once. You know you want to! It's. . .inspiration, yeah, inspiration, for the gay cowboys.
And, I'll even forgive a delay in SMCD if it means gay cowboys!
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I really don't expect anyone to understand. Writing is writing is writing. Every bit you do, if you're insightful at all, improves the whole. This realm is great for getting the essential FB about what works, otherwise you would be writing in a void. Because it's not like review boards do anything more than accept/reject.
*shrugs*
Exercise, baby. It's good. Would he rather have you writing tripe you care nothing about in order to try to sell it to a particular audience? The time is yours, the effort is yours. Do whatever you want with it, and I think working on your craft, however you need to do that, is time damn well spent.
*hugs*
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Hmmm.
There have been some intensive discussions about what makes good fanfic, badfic, etc. And I have come to the conclusion that some people need to step away from their fandom for a spell.
But when there is a story that needs to come out, you just get it out and make it right. I dunno. I'm getting sour on the elitism that seems to be running rampant in all things Joss. And why don't RL people get that you can (could? will?) do both? You most definitely should. You write amazing dialogue, and you are funny, and you make me see the people. Not many can claim that.
Well, I just alienated myself from just about everyone. Uh... dogs being eaten by eagles!! Come back.....
*sob*
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Yeah, there's definitely opinionation bulldoggin' the fic world.(Sorry, I'm just not backing off the cowboy metaphors.) But considering I've written more in the past 4 months than I have in the past four years...the fic burst of writing even has me dusting off that long laid aside novel and going, wasn't I going to be a writer when I grew up?
And you know, more dogs being eaten by eagles wouldn't be a bad thing...
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Yup. Them words musta come outta ya 'cause you gots them fancy pants learnin. Best go use it, now. (Oh, and were you channeling a little Cheri O'Teri in that fic from our email? And when i say email, I'm talking about your man milk. And when I say man milk, I'm talking aboutcha seee-men.)
Rambling tastes like burning!
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Ok, 1st, no leaving the 'verse.
2nd, no leaving the 'verse!
3rd, this is something you do for fun, it's something that matters to you (and all of us), it's a hobby, y'know. How can someone basically tell you your hobby is a waste of time?
4th, no leaving the 'verse!!
Human AUs are a lot of fun and as your beta may I just say, "Gay cowboys!!"
:: happy chair wiggle thing ::
I should be put down with big bullets.
HOBBY!! That's RIGHT. It IS a fun way to fill time and enjoy yourself. I was forgetting that bit what with everyone coming up with rules and why and why nots, and no AUs.
But they better not touch my Gay Cowboys. Sue, make one of the gay cowboys whip out his cock and yell "take a holt!" Bwah ha ha!!! Bull riding is HOTTXXX!! The extra Ts and Xs are for the extremely large cocks on the bulls. How those roosters got up there is beyond me...
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GROVEL BNF!!!! I think this is one of those times I should back away from my computer.
*door shuts*
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Hee!! First crush!!
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Oh and BNF? I had to look it up, I was reading a thread and they all kept writing that. I was like, "WTF is BNF?" I am the google search queen, I will find anything. -booming voice-
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I was feeling nostalgic, so I made me some new icons. . .
First love
One spirit looking for the other
Caught between a hard hard place and a rock
You've pulled me out of my country-western purgatory! Yay, you! I went to see Rick a few years ago at our local amusement park. I made Caza go with. He was bored. He ate like, 4 corndogs and rode rides solo while I indulged my inner 12 year old. There were chicks there with scrapbooks of Rick (ah, pre-internet fandom!) and he was cracking me up, reading the quotes of some his old interviews with stuff like, "Acting is a current passion, but music is what really sets my soul on fire." And then he would say: "I never fucking said that!" My friend Neil's band got to play with him once and I asked how he looked and Neil said, "Sue - that man will be damn good looking corpse." *sigh*
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It was appropriate that I took her with me, cause she didn't get to go the first time I saw him in concert! I was living in Phoenix, Az. at the time, and he was scheduled to play at the Az. State Fair on Oct. 24, so I immediately rushed out to get tickets. I was pregnant with her at the time, and when I found out my due date was Oct. 24th, I was really bummed! But Elena was very cooperative, and decided to make her appearance Oct. 5th, so 2 1/2 weeks later, we left her with my mother-in-law and went to see my Rick! And if that's not dedication, I don't know what is! Two hours on a bench with an episiotomy! Only for Rick!
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Writing fanfic is being creative for yourself (and the plus side is the fb).
Don't let RL friends get in the way or your creativity.
I love you more than Twizzlers.
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The first time I replied to this, you were still logged on, so it looked like you were loving yourself, and rhapsodizing over Nicky's arms....hee!
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darkslash side. GrabDOOD, AND STUFF!
SNIFF!!!
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Dude, your brother is hot. HOTTXXX. The extra Ts and Xs are to indicate the level of hotness, which is, like, huge. And stuff.
You are so not standing. That would hurt your back to type, silly. You. Are. On. The. Computer.
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You wanna know why that's funny? I'm an only child... or is it childe?
Funnier? I looked around for the brother that does not exist.
The boobs they are large, however proportionate, I'm quite tall. They raise 'em big in Texan, y'know.
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(And it's CHILDER. WTF does that even mean? Leave Anne Rice and her playmates alone!!!)
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38 D or 38DD depends on the brand. My fear of pregnacy is the increase in boobage.
New Mexico's m'neighbor, be nice. Now, the the other states? You have free reign.
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WHere the wind comes sweeping down the plain?
Can 3 be considered Legion?
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*wanders off wondering where she put her six-shooter*
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So all this is leading up to saying that while I really hope you don't abandon all of us here, there just might be an emerging market for people in this fandom who want to start actually being paid for their labors of love. The author profiled in the Globe was of course a gay man, but you know, the publishing house *should* take note of the fact that they do know, from survey data, that women are buying these books, and why not have women write them too?
Gay cowboys, my god. You are so funny, can't wait to see it. But what about SMCD????
SUE!!!!!!
Are you at church right now? Atheists get to sleep longer. Hee!
'Morning!! (You should be a big name gay male romance novelist. How fun would your 20 year H.S. reunion be?)
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And I will never abandon! I will go down on this 'ship! (I so wish I had that icon) Thanks for all of your wonderful fb & comments.
I can't take credit for the gay cowboy idea, that's all nashmaveric. I just happened to jump on it. I won't neglect SMCD - it pretty much writes itself now that I've gotten over my smut fear. And S.N.I.F.F. are people I think are terribly funny.
Dude!
I still want a puma icon. . .can anybody think of a cool acronym that could be PUMA.
Sue, we talked in real life about the thing with your friend. I know he means well, but he knew what he was going to find when he went to that site. so why read all the stuff (just to act like he's openminded?) and then tell you it's a waste of time. that burns me. now personally, it never would have occurred to me to write fiction at all until I started writing fanfic. it's basically how I learned to write fiction. so. . . it balances out over time.
re: gay cowboys -- try to find the story "Brokeback Mountain" by Annie Proulx. this is basically a cowboy slash story that has been very well regarded and is probably going to be a Gyllenhaal/Ledger flick. now personally? i think the story sucks donkey balls. I think it's overblown and pretentious and can think of a dozen fanfic writers (including you!) who could do the same story better. it has the worst sex scene I've ever read. but somehow because it's written by a well known (and female) writer, it's got some kind of literary street cred. blah.
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