Is there a shelf life on obsession?

[crazydiamondsue]

ASK ME ANYTHING

I will never be multi-fannish. I know this. I am a Cocker Spaniel of fandom loyalty. My Buffyverse investment wanes and ebbs, but it never subsides. It's currently cranked up to 11. I've been spending my snow days re-watching eps (currently season seven, two and five, in no particular order) and reading and re-reading fic (and leaving comments because I am AWESOME!) uploading fic to archives and reading old meta and scribbling a line or two of fic (yeah, I have no illusions about how that will turn out) and all-out wallowing in a love for the Buffyverse that will never die. It pops out of my subconscious in random quotes and geeky non sequiturs. Reading the fic makes me want to be a better writer; watching the show makes me want to be a better person. And to quote the prescient Miss Dionne Warwick, I know I'll never love this way again.

And I'm pretty much exhausting cityphonelines and lunabee34 with my shiny (old) obsession. So.

IP logging is always off (stalk me, all ye young and tender maidens) anonymous comments are always on: Ask me anything about the Buffyverse. About 'ships (canon and unconventional.) About plotlines controversial or contrived. About characters and my love or lack thereof. About the Buffy fandom that was, and what little I see of the Buffy fandom that is. Ask my opinion of a fic you wrote if you want honesty (I'll squee if I squee, I'll email if I concrit.) Ask me about a fic I wrote, or one I didn't write, or one I should have. Ask me about Buffy's coats or Xander's shoes, Cordy's hair or Giles' eyes. Ask me why I love Xander, or why I love, hell, Vi. I don't care.

Ask me anything, just let me talk about my Buffy-love because Caza's heard it all for 10 years and Jonah's 18-month-old contribution is to yell, "Kitty-cat!" whenever Angel vamps out and growls. (I shit you not -- it's a thing of beauty and joy forever.)

ASK ME ANYTHING -- as long as you're humming Nerf Herder under your breath.

Comments

[lusciousxander.livejournal.com]

In your opinion, what's the best Spander fic you've written? The one you're most proud of of?

[crazydiamondsue.livejournal.com]

Well, you take away the parodies and the silliness and I really only wrote 2 Spike/Xander fics -- the post-Chosen "Choices" and the post-Gift "Sunday Morning Coming Down." I like Choices, more so than I thought I would when I was writing it -- I really like Xander in that story -- but of all of the things I've written, I'm still most satisfied with "Sunday Morning Coming Down."

It's not perfect by any means (there are a couple of pieces of fanon I wish I'd left alone) but I wrote that as an S/X fic that could possibly, maybe, happen in canon, and I wrote if so that my non-S/X friends could read it, so there's a lot of ensemble and lot of what Buffy meant to Spike and Xander as their reason. It's also where I worked out a lot of issues I had about losing my mom at a young age (similar to what Joss did with The Body, although of course not as well.) It's how I see both characters, and why I can 'ship them but not see them as the truest love ever.

It's meaningful to me, as well, because I wrote it in response to a lot of my favorite S/X stories or writers in fandom, and by writing I not only got the appreciation of my favorite S/X writers, I also met two of my closest fandom friends, who are now RL friends today. And whether or not it's every S/X reader's cup of tea or not, this review by yin_again sums up everything I meant to do with the story, and I'm incredibly proud that it came through (at least for Yin.)